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Love’s Song

Love’s song,
That beautiful melody,
Of uncharted yet explored inventions,
Mysterious and complex whimsy,
Heard the world round,
Two by two,
Souls unexplained affections,
Those that outstrip reason,
None required,
When two eyes clash wondrously,
Sometimes from across a room,
Other times across a table on a first date,
And still others people that a lifetime have been known,
But not KNOWN,
To each other,
Then a deep enthralling kiss,
One that changes lives forever,
True expression of Cupid’s design,
So powerful and unrelenting,
(not to mention divinely impressive)
It recalls love’s first entrancing moment,
Youthful exuberance,
Blind, not yet aware,
Of the complexities of such splendor,
The electrical charge,
Informing of nature’s role,
When two lips, tongues and bodies collide,
Demanding inelegantly of them,
All that they are,
Good, bad or indifferent,
Opening up oneself,
Freely and without compromise,
Such that usual distortions,
The masks worn by all,
Fall to the wayside,
Scolded by emotion,
Reason leaves,
Allowing chemical actions and reactions,
Between two otherwise uninterested bodies,
Those now share a universal truth,
While interlocked in sweet surrender,
Lounging inside each others insecurity,
Discovering what it means to be truly alive,
To be who and what they are,
Letting loose the howling winds of insecurity,
While in another’s arms,
Feeling the absolute safety of truth,
Honour, trust, hope and the possibility,
For a lifetime,
Of shared illusion,
Captured perfectly,
In the glint of that lovers eyes,
When love’s song,
Is played within.

SDM

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The Distilled Essence

The distilled essence of I and I and I,
The distilled essence of me,
The parts trying to break through,
To the other side,
The proper side of lunacy,
Feelings that have crushed my spirit,
Those of self loathing and ill repute,
Those that leave me restless,
Wishing,
Hoping,
Praying, though not to a deity,
Save the one of my own salvation,
Resident inside my head,
That some day,
In some way,
Someone may look into the darkness of me,
And in so doing see a light,
That is invisible to everyone else,
The light that holds this soul complete,
Replete with a darkness reigning,
Though not cascading into refuted self control,
My Black Dog ain’t the boss of me.

The distilled essence of I and I and I,
Is here,
In nuggets,
A word here and a phrase there,
Easy enough to see,
Should you stop looking,
And begin seeing,
I am love,
I am compassion,
I am loyalty,
I am kindness,
I am I,
Me.

The distilled essence of I and I and I,
Is love,
Nothing more simple,
Than repressed issues of abandonment,
Those resident in me since my early teens,
Where with every ounce of me,
I have sought love,
A full and rewarding love,
A lifetime,
That someone, perhaps you,
Perhaps not,
But someone,
That can finally reach into that light that no one else sees,
That light that you can draw out of me,
The best,
Rather than festering wounds,
The worthwhile,
Rather than the pieces of me,
That I would rather be without,
And together,
Perhaps,
You will discover…

‎”To love someone means to see him as God intended him” Fyodor Dostoevsky

Whatever God there is,
He/She/It or they,
Intended me to feel this pain,
Experience this sorrow,
Express it here for all to see,
As a manifestation of love for those I will never meet,
But held true for you,
For you.

SDM

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Quantum Mechanics of Love

The quantum mechanics of love,
Are easily,
The most complex and misunderstood,
The most intelligent have not solved it,
The most insightful can not quite grasp,
There is no rhyme or reason,
We try to explain, dissect and comprehend,
The incomprehensible,
Though,
Of all human mysteries,
I often wonder,
How in one minute,
A chemical attraction,
Firing across a room,
Any room,
On any day and time,
Can lead two otherwise unaware souls,
To a life imagined,
Love and marriage,
White picket fence,
And a dog named spot,
Filled with the splendor of enflamed passions,
How,
In just one moment,
Two pairs of eyes can meet,
And the attraction,
Instantaneously propels them to another place,
Where only love,
ONLY LOVE,
Can provide the answers,
Will provide the answers,
LOVE is the answer,
And in that one blessed moment,
Of universal clarity,
The serendipitous becomes plain for all the world to see,
For surely,
If two lovers,
Those meet and greet under such conditions
(as all lovers do),
fail to see the blessed gift that stands before them,
it would lead to the collapse of the infinite,
for the rules of the cosmos,
require the bright flame of love,
to sustain our daily sufferings,
to counteract pain with joy,
sorrow with laughter,
longing with a kiss,
a sweet kiss,
the surrender of the rational,
for the more esoteric,
an effusive desire,
that takes hold and won’t let go,
the quantum mechanics of love,
are the secrets,
Those refuse to relinquish their truths,
save for when boy meets girl,
boy meets boy, girl meets girl,
or girl meets boy.

Would you like to meet,
Perhaps,
The other side of Jupiter,
Table for two,

Me,
And,
YOU…

Destiny awaits!

SDM

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Love – A Personal Treatise

I believe in love at first sight,
I’ve been lucky enough to know it,
Once.

I believe that not a single word must be spoken,
For there are levels of communication,
That even our brightest minds cannot fathom.

I believe that from across a room or an ocean, you know,
Perhaps its atoms smashing, chemicals reacting, or some great unknown,
But it is real and with the right circumstances, you’ll know in an instant.

I believe that in that instant everything changes,
Neurons fire, endorphins emit untold scents,
And primal reactions are plain violating the laws of nature itself.

I believe that two souls, drawn together, mating, is the purpose of our lives,
To share experiences, through good and bad,
To uplift another with precious intent,
To share in every moment, the minutiae and the grand affairs.

I believe that the supposed romanticized ideal of which I write, constantly,
Should be that love, for which we all strive,
A romance that is played out daily,
As equal partners in a life long journey,
With no destination in sight.

I believe in love,
Despite my soured experience,
But my love is not confined by the limitations of past surrender,
Rather is inspired by the potentiality of you,
Whoever you are.

I believe that the greatest gift we’ll ever know,
Is the deep and penetrating caress as two lovers eyes meet,
Drawing in to a personal universe,
Creating a divined spark of inspiration,
One that reaches so far within,
It feels as if they are physically touching your heart,
Stroking and protecting it.

I believe in love,
I believe in the daily pursuit of romance,
For that special one,
Your one true love,
Knowing as I do,
That whether it be days, weeks, months or years,
She will understand me,
And I will understand her,
Because of love.

SDM

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Deny Myself…

I can no sooner deny myself,
Of your avail,
And the sweet pleasantries that defy explanation,
The incredible swirling delights,
Those are your treasured gift to me,
I can no sooner deny myself,
Of your avail,
Than I could explain from where in the ether,
These words emerge,
As pearls of wisdom, desire, love and hope,
The words that mystify you,
These words that move you,
Those nourish your soul and entreat your mind,
Finding yourself in an unexpected freefall that is requited,
And these words are my only explanation,
Making it seem senseless to fight myself,
When I wage so many battles with my brain already,
Why shall I fight these intense feelings,
Those have percolated,
Just under the surface,
As seventeen years of repressed passion,
Now seems destined to chart our course,
On the stormy seas of change,
The turbulent discovery of a newly emerging self,
That is not free from the design of independence,
Though it yet requires that you fully be willing to explore,
Without equivocation,
A parade of endless possibilities,
That started with a simple kiss,
That was neither simple nor just a kiss,
As our minds tangled in gymnastics rare,
So why, why, I shout from the storied hills,
Where now I write,
Where now I have truly discovered myself,
A new stride that has me directly on a crash course,
With my intended destiny,
Why, I shout from these blessed hills,
Shall I deny myself,
Of your avail,
When all I want is one kiss more,
One more second on the phone,
One more text that alights a newly forming wonder,
That I want to wander,
I want to explore,
I want to implore,
That no longer must I deny myself,
Of your avail,
As our souls collide,
Nobly,
Magnificently,
Effortlessly,
So no,
I will no longer,
Deny myself of your avail,
But will rather rise up,
Rise up,
To meet the challenge of unlocking your defenses,
Seamlessly weaving my way into your intention,
One kiss,
One moment,
One word at a time,
Yes I shall rise,
Inhaling your essence,
And falling subtly into a heavenly intoxication,
So no,
I will not,
Any longer,
Deny myself,
Of your avail.

SDM

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A Fleeting Moment

In the somber realization,
That a fleeting moment,
Is just that,
Fleeting,
And only a moment,
When our deepest passions,
Become our realized desires,
No God of Love around,
This, as we both know, is merely primal,
Eros indeed,
As we each seek to preserve self,
While giving as much away as we can,
In that fleeting moment.

Launched into an abyss of you,
I feel the burning delight,
Of your fingers,
And mine,
Clasped together,
As lovers would,
Though we are not lovers beyond tonight,
Right,
Pure desire,
Realized,
As we both climax into tomorrow,
Can there be more?

Erudite temptations,
Both master and slave,
Teacher and student,
Our bodies an amusement park,
All amusement parks,
Tempted by the solitary pleasures,
Of a tandem that from the moment our bodies engaged,
Was so surreal,
That it brought me to tears,
She brought me to tears,
You felt my tears,
Wiping them away from not only sight but memory,
Your power over me,
A temptress,
My erudite lover,
In that fleeting moment.

You are my ambrosia,
Truly,
Do you know that?
The corporeal nectar that I long to sip,
Lap and submerge myself in,
May I submerge in you?
Free my mind,
And yours,
Once more to the heavens of Greek tragedy,
And divine comedy,
No Delphic wisdom to enchant us,
For more than a fleeting moment,
I would beg,
Plead,
Fall to my knees and scream to Aphrodite,
Let me once more,
Caress her skin,
Soak in her elegant way,
Linger in her tomorrows,
Please,
But no,
The moment is gone,
Though our friendship endures,
My Hooded Red.

SDM

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An Unexamined Life

“ὁ δὲ ἀνεξέταστος βίος οὐ βιωτὸς ἀνθρώπῳ”
Socrates

Hours of days,
Days of weeks,
Weeks of months,
And months of years,
I have stood at the precipice,
Teetering on that very thin line,
Seeking, searching and penetrating within,
Those dark aspects of my existence,
That had lain dormant or just beyond grasp,
Ignored with great malice,
My depression, my solitude, my fears,
As now I sit in retreat from those ills that ail me,
Yet, as I probe deeper and deeper,
Into who and what I am,
I find that the answers are not out there,
In the great abyss,
Rather they lay just within reach,
Inside the infinite universe of my thoughts,
Inside my own soul,
Rummaging as I do my own ego and id,
Foraging as I have these painful memories,
Those that now are absent,
As this mind continues playing necessary tricks,
To keep me on the right side of the line,
Sane,
Yet still I ferret my own conceptions,
My own beliefs,
These struggles that do not define me,
Instead present a light, chosen,
That is dying for the living,
While marching ever closer to the dying,
Trying to finally be what the Gods intended,
Such is the examination of my life,
A keen awareness,
An honest appraisal,
Of everything it means to be me,
Who I am,
What I am,
Who I seek to be,
What I need to do to get there,
What I need to give up to get there,
Those dark shadows cast,
My Black Dog only infuriates those,
Churchill’s gift to me two fold,
My growling demonic beast,
And words,
For I am nothing,
Nothing without these words,
These words are my definition,
And my definition is organic and living,
Breathing as I do,
Words,
They are all I have,
Having chosen, through determination,
To escape the world that haunted me with every step,
That cursed me and the day I was born,
Unsure or unable to deal with the fragments of me,
Those fragments,
That I and only I,
Can explore, investigate and consider,
Open like a book,
You may flip through the pages of me,
Find my darkness,
While still my light,
Choosing as you wish which is of more value to you,
For I know my value, untapped or otherwise,
Though my purpose and promise are as inseparable,
As my mind is from my skin,
I have delved, rooted around and hunted,
The repressed memories of me,
My childhood,
My adolescence,
My now adult life,
Hoping that I may find the spark,
That ignited this mental firestorm,
While, as yet, found,
I know,
In the examination of self,
I am getting ever closer to the pinnacle of my own substance,
The pinnacle of me,
For I, like Socrates, have found,
The unexamined life is not worth living for a human being.

Do you have the courage?
The mental fortitude
The strength of character and conviction,
To do the same?

For if you do,
Your life, just as mine,
Will be dramatically improved,
As you discover,
YOU,
The real you,
Not the supposed,
Nor the imagined,
The dressed up or artificial mask you present,
The real you,
You.

SDM

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